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At times

13:33 Sep 30 2008
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I don't know why I bother.



Seriously is it some sick thought in the back of my head? Or my constant drive forward? Simply put I do not know, what I do know is that I have to tread softly.



Matters such as this require time, attention and care. This one deep down means something- to me. Frankly even if left where it is now, for me that is enough. Camaraderie is not something that happens very often for me, and the thought of just letting this one go is not acceptable.



Still I do not expect people to understand or care. Walking my own way is not something that is unusual for me, nor for either one of us. Perhaps that alone should give me hope, yet I dare not. I am too fragile for that.


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I pilfered from Bones... heh

02:06 Sep 29 2008
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1) Do you have the guts to answer these questions and post them as "The Controversial Survey"?

-Duh



2) Would you do meth if it was legalized?

-No I like my fat ass.



3) Abortion: for or against?

-For others not me.





4) Would our country fall with a woman president?

-Does the average american household fall with a woman in charge? No, it has clean floors, laundry done, dishes done and food on the table. If working with a partner- even more gets done. It's all about team work who cares about the sex?





5) Do you believe in the death penalty?

-Yes well-done please.







6) Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?

-Yes might as well acknowledge the smoke dopes since we already have the drink dinks.





7) Are you for or against pre-marital sex?

-Don't care. If a relationship is only about sex it will fail. If it sucks it could have a chance IF partners work together on the issue. That said, are you with them for the hoochie, or the noggin?







8) Do you believe in God?

-Yes.





9) Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?

-No. And I do not think that 99% of married couples are married. I think they are "civil unions". It is crap the that US has seperation of Church and state, yet this is a religious vow that holds legal status? hmmph.









10) Do you think it's wrong that so many illegal aliens are moving to the USA?

-Illegal yes- but we need CHEAPER work visas as what orchard picker is going to pay 10,000 for a work permit to pick apples and make 1000 over a summer? Face it, the system is broke, and it needs fixins.



11) A 12-yr old girl has a baby...should she keep it?

-Only if her family is willing to support her.



12)Do you think the drinking age should be lowered to 18?

-No, but 19. It's stupid that the US keeps it at 21 when Canada is 19 and most other countries are the same. You vote, you fight in armed services, you should be able to drink. I think more of the drinking issues come from the "forbidden fruit" aspect of drinking. Oooh so rebelious... whatever.





13) Should the war in Iraq be called off?

-Now that we've done fucked up that shit, we need to clean up our mess. We simply should not have gone. Now we are in a rock and hard place to correct our actions.





15) Do you believe in spanking your children?

-Yes in certain instances, and only extreme ones. Too often and it is just like nagging them. If you want to make a point- then teach them, not beat them.





16) Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?

-Only if you throw in the president (with the flag). *I have to copy this one! YAY to stealing another person's words*





17) A mother is declared innocent after murdering her 5 children in an insanity case.

-Let her spend her days in the asylum, I'm certain she'll never be "ok".



18) Are you afraid others will judge you for reading some of your answers?

-Like we don't already judge, I'm over it if you are ;)


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Today

23:24 Sep 28 2008
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I made Stinkies! :D



Lots of stinkies:



Neroli floral water

Chamomile floral water

Rose Floral water

Sandalwood floral water

For Normal Dry Skin: Sandalwood, Rose and Chamomile floral water.

For Normal/Oily skin: Neroli, sandalwood, chamomile floral water



72 healing balms: beeswax, shea butter, palm oil, jojoba, olive oil infused with arnica, olive oil infused with comfry, olive oil infused with calendula, avocado oil, vitamin e, lavender, peppermint, rose geranium, tea tree, eucalyptus essential oils.



Soy candles made with Essential oils (no fragrance - just eo's):



Uplift: lemon grass, tangerine, lime and grapefruit



Unwind: Lavender/Rose Geranium



Chill Out: Peppermint, Spearmint, Wintergreen, menthol



Sensual: Lavender, Sandalwood, Ylang Ylang



Mud Masks:



Oily skin: Green austrailian clay with kelp and bladderwrack enhanced with Neroli floral water, grapefruit and lime essential oils.



Dry/Normal skin: Green austrailian clay with kelp and bladderwrack enhanced with Chamomile and Rose floral water, lots of Ylang Ylang essential oil.



And Bath salts:



Unwind: with magnesium sulfate, dead sea salt, pink Himalayan salt, sodium bicarbonate, lavender, jasmine, angelica root, hydrangia root, calendula, linden, essential oils of Lavender, rose geranium.



Chill Out: with magnesium sulfate, dead sea salt, sodium bicarbonate, peppermint, wintergreen, spearmint, witch hazel, menthol, essential oils of peppermint, wintergreen, spearmint.



Uplift: with magnesium sulfate, dead sea salt, pink Himalayan salt, sodium bicarbonate, orange peel, lemon balm, essential oils of lemon grass, tangerine, lime and grapefruit.



Chocolate Lovers Detox: : with magnesium sulfate, dead sea salt, sodium bicarbonate, pure cocoa, and french roast esspresso.



Several individual size essential oil 5mL blends:





Uplift: lemon grass, tangerine, lime and grapefruit



Unwind: Lavender/Rose Geranium



Jet Lag: Peppermint, wintergreen spearmint, rosemary, eucalyptus and mentol.



Plus roll ons that are made with Jojoba and Avocado base *the cold really drys people out that's why thicker oils this time of year* made these in the following:



Jet Lag: Peppermint, wintergreen spearmint, rosemary, eucalyptus and mentol.



Uplift: lemon grass, tangerine, lime and grapefruit





*Whew* Now I just need time to get the web site up and running =/ Damn my life! Seriously I need more hours to the day... Especially since I'm coaching most mornings.



The only thing I really feel cheated on...



I didn't get any cake :( But with just me here to "celebrate" there is no need for me to get one.


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Nothing is worse

23:18 Sep 27 2008
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Than waking from a lovely three hour nap, to find a message "where are you?" From someone that does not answer their phone. Cripes. No wonder there is miscommunication. =/



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Nap time

20:08 Sep 27 2008
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A few thoughts.



Today at the National Regatta, I was a volunteer for doping. Which meant I got to watch athletes pee in a cup. O.o During the time waiting for one of them to have to pee, it came up that no cell phone talking is allowed... and I thought back to my own drug tests in the sport, and realized that I didn't know that rule- because none of us had phones then. Add to my horror: half of my team was born AFTER the year I started rowing.



O.o



Ok now I feel really crusty old. Time for a nap :P



Hey if I have to age, I'm taking advantage of it every step of the way!


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Thankful

21:43 Sep 26 2008
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For facebook. I know it sounds crazy, but so many of my childhood friends are there. Living where I do now, it's so good to go there and see a friendly face of people I know love me, who I love.



Too bad time moved us all so far away.



Still I have so many memories of church back then, and these people are firmly etched into my heart. What a wonderful feeling, even if it is a memory.


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What I think...

16:05 Sep 26 2008
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That several emo tears have been shed over what you portray to the rest of the world as hurt. In reality it is you not being enough of an adult to stand on your own two feet.



Each and every time, the one consistent thing is "poor you". I wonder who will be next? Who will get too close and you, only for you to shut them out? Will they hurt also? Probably.



Because of them, I will not gloat, because it is they that should be pitied, and felt sorry for. They believed in you (and still do) while your insecurities will whittle away what strength the friendship has. I have no doubt that you will shit on them just as easily as you did to myself and numerous others prior to me, it is only a matter of time.



Perhaps you should learn humility and gain some integrity so that when you make a mistake you can stop pointing fingers, and own up to it. "I'm sorry" goes a long way with most people. I've never seen you say it. Because of that alone, you have lost all respect that I used to hold for you. Will others be as patient as I have been? Doubtful, as when I look at the long line of people, you have done this to time and time again- they all shun you now. Not surprising really when you see the level of betrayal that you are willing to inflict for nothing more than your own hubris.



Arrogant twat is a good description of what I think of you. Emo pissant is another.


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Tempted

02:53 Sep 23 2008
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to break my own rules...


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Words of wisdom from my theatre mentor...

01:11 Sep 22 2008
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Art isn't something you go out and just do. You practise a craft and occasionally it happens.


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Reflection

23:22 Sep 21 2008
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I have so much to say, yet everytime I get to a point where "that's it" another thought takes over. This tends to happen to me when someone that I have looked up to, or has had a major impact in my life is taken.



Hardest part is, I also have to maintain my work, coaching and shows that I have committed to. At the best I'm treading water; and the worst, well I'm about to get out of the water.



All of this introspect points to one blame: myself.



Each and every instance of failure I see the person holding me back has been none other than yours truly. There is no point in crying over what is past, yet there is still a point to saying, "I'm sorry".



I am sorry that I let down a coach that believed I could be an olympian.



I am sorry that I had to leave to find where I want to be.



I am sorry that I fear the most being truly the best.



Part of my problem is, I always wanted a quiet life. One that I had envisioned a partner, children and teaching. Because of this deep rooted want, I felt my other goals would hinder that secret want. Instead it became the block I used to hold myself from what I could be.



Should have

Could have

Would have.



Those phrases have no place left, there is what I have done, and what I will do.



I need this reminder, I need to pull the boot straps tight and focus. There is no doubt that what I want, I will achieve- even when I was letting others down, I knew this. It is not anything more than the truth of me. However, it still does not change that the person I lied to the most, is looking at me now and wondering how I got into this mess.



Small steps in awareness that is all I can ask. Patience- when will I ever learn it?




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I love spam... really. This is a real subject header from my in box.

02:44 Sep 20 2008
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will you have sex with me I need you im serious


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Because I pilfer!

02:34 Sep 20 2008
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Taken from Stikki, because well I liked it- that's why.



What's more... AHAHAHAHAHAHA :D




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The "round" poem...

02:17 Sep 20 2008
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O.


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02:01 Sep 17 2008
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May you rest.



Emil K. Kossev

January 28, 1966 - September 15, 2008



The Seattle rowing community mourns the passing of one of its brightest stars. Emil Kossev died peacefully on Monday September 15, 2008. Fighting until the end, he lost his battle with Clear Cell Sarcoma, a rare form of bone cancer.



A graduate of the National Sports Academy in Sofia, Bulgaria Emil pursued a life in the sport of rowing. He was a four-time Bulgarian national team member and won thirteen Bulgarian national sculling titles between 1982 and 1991. He was a recipient ofBulgaria's Master of the Sport Award in Rowing, granted for lifetime accomplishments in the sport.Although he was an accomplished athlete, it was as a coach that Emil would make his mark in the sport.



In 1992 Emil traveled to the United States to pursue a career in coaching. After initially settling in Everett, WA he moved to Seattle, WA and founded a High Performance training program at the Pocock Rowing Center. Starting with a handful of dedicated athletes Emil created a program that included integrating unique performance technology expertise, rigorous physiological training and high quality technical instruction. He coached twenty-eight crews to medals in elite international competition including a bronze at the 2004 World Championships, two silver and two bronze medals at the 2003 Pan American Games and gold in the men’s single sculls at the 2000 Olympic Qualification Regatta and gold in the men’s single sculls at the 2000 Slovakian Olympic Trials. His athletes also placed first in the men’s single sculls at the 2004 U.S. Olympic Trials and women’s single sculls at the 2000 U.S. Olympic Trials.



In 2005, Emil was nominated for the prestigious United States Olympic Committee’s Counsilman Science Award in recognition of his practical application of sport science and technical video analysis in the preparation of high-performance rowers for elite competition.



In 2007 Emil made a decision to leave day-to-day coaching. Although he never severed his ties with the Pocock program, he took the position of Performance Technology Advisor with Podium Canada in their Road To Excellence initiative. He was responsible for providing mentoring support to Canada's targeted summer sports as part of their preparations for the 2008 Olympic Games. He also played a role in educating technical staff in the areas of applied high performance technology and advanced video systems.In his commitment to rowing, performance technology, and research-based training, Emil changed the landscape of rowing in the Northwest. With all of his success he remained humble and continually strove to find ways to integrate and apply technological tools to enhance performance and increase speed.



Emil’s life was not always about coaching elite athletes. He had a profound influence on athletes of all ages and abilities. He was an advocate and coach for numerous masters scullers. As his career progressed he became a mentor for other coaches. In his short time he made so many friends across North America. He was loyal and generous; he never returned from trips without gifts. From T-shirts and hats to pens and snow-globes he always found a fun memento to brighten your day. He always made time for coffee dates. He had the ability to be sensitive when an a friend or athlete needed someone to listen and conversely knew exactly “how and when to turn a whiner to the mirror to move on with it.” He made many stronger mentally and physically because he believed in them even when they may not have, one of the greatest gifts a coach could employ. Emil was inspiring, creative and fun loving and he will be missed greatly. His friends

will continue to treasure his memory.



In memory of Emil donations may be made to TheGeorge Pocock Rowing Foundation – Kossev Endowment, 3320 Fuhrman Avenue E., Seattle, WA 98102. The Foundation has established this endowment to honor Emil’s legacy as a visionary and coach.

Please contact anyone on the following list not included on this email.

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There are no words

01:40 Sep 17 2008
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My coach from when I trained as a pre-elite athlete died yesterday. He was just 5 years older than I.



This man pushed me to the limits and then showed me that my notions of fitness could see an entirely new level. There was laughter, pain *lots of pain*, blood and tears. Through all of it he intended nothing but the best for all of us. For without us and results, then his dream would not survive.



Just yesterday I told a story of how we would tease him horribly because of the pain of training. Still most of what I know today I learned from him. The testing of lactic acid, HR monitoring, VO2 max, how to loose weight for performance without hindering it, ways to suppliment both with foods and high performance aides... I can't even start.



And all I want is to talk to someone who will understand. Yet the words seem to fail me...


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For me

19:16 Sep 16 2008
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I just hope that I succeeded in expressing this should not be any more than end of a season. Having been in the position of loosing a seat, and then having to continue on in a way that was degrading- I found a way. I just hope that I did not include shame with what happened.



Too damn close. I feel completely justified in my reasoning, as does the head coach. That does not change that I know I just crushed two dreams for this season.



If I could give them wings to soar into the positive outcomes, I would. It is not my place, mine is to be the barrier. I hope they find a way around my news.



And now, the rest need me to focus forward. 14 is now down to 12- and between those 12; 10 are within seconds of each other. Time to sit down and motivate- perhaps out of this the team as a whole will shine.



That is what I wish, my selfishness, but also because I can imagine what the win from hard work will feel like for them. To see them fly...

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Something that was said...

02:45 Sep 16 2008
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About selection by the head coach.



"I hate it when coaches cut people and say it was the hardest thing they've done."



At first when he said that I was surprised, but he's right. It is not about me and what I'm doing- it's about them and how the team does.



Reality check of why he's such a gem to work for- and why so many of his teams do well, it is not about him- it's about his athletes. Hard to remember, but it makes all the difference in perspective.


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How do you?

02:11 Sep 16 2008
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Say with compassion that you just don't make the cut?



I'm currently doing my race plan/training for my team this week, and I have to cut 2 girls. Both I like, and with one she was just 2 tenths of a second ahead, yet with her land testing she is 30 seconds behind the girl she beat. There is no good way.



I always knew I would one day be in this position- as I have wanted to coach since I was a high school rower. Much of my time when not rowing in the boat was spent watching what the coach said and did- learning how I wanted to be.



Now that I'm here, I just hope I do not make the detrimental mistakes that my coaches made with me. I believe in being honest, but keeping the compassion. It is their dream I am shattering, still that I had to make the choice shows the depth of the team.



That is a testiment to all of them, and how hard they have worked. Now I must work hard to take them further. Game on.


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Huh?!

01:09 Sep 16 2008
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At work today I was told about a dream a co-worker had of me.



In it she said that I announced that I had desided to have a baby with my boss. That we were just going to go ahead and do it.



O.o



Geez, thank goodness I work with a female boss and I'm NOT bi.



Ok seriously, I think this freaked me out.



O.O


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I miss her so much

01:44 Sep 15 2008
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My best friend just sent this to me:







Leave it to her to find hard science to rap... those that don't know us - well it's a long story and frankly all about teenage angst expressed through school and theory.



It's been too long since we've connected, and frankly I miss her. Very few people understand my philosophy as well as she who has her life ruled by the world of science. When I was looking at grad school I still remember it was not my family or even hers that I had to convince- it was her. See she has always wanted me to go into physics, as I personally think she wants me there so I can work with her.



Sometimes I wonder, because I miss having her around and I hate how life has made it difficult for even simple phone calls.


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To the Rat

01:24 Sep 14 2008
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You will remain in my thoughts and prayers.



Hang in there sis, we love you.


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And here I thought there was wit and intelligence

22:39 Sep 13 2008
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Instead it is nothing more than a bully who chooses logic to push their ideal. If you choose to not agree, no matter if science may not be the end all be all, then you are damned in their eyes.



They probably have never told someone that they will die because we simply do not have the science to save them.



They have not had to treat someone who's body is in constant pain because science cannot cure them.



Worse they put their faith in something that constantly changes as those that study it, dare to imagine different ideals and then test them to failure or success. Make no mistake, science is wonderful when you understand the limits on it are nothing more than human.



There still is art in science, and to those who see that and dare to dream and then test- You are high in my respect. To those that choose to think less of the dreamer, for them I wish them dreams that expand their poor science which will fail due to lack of vision.



"We are such stuff

As dreams are made on" ~Shakespeare




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01:25 Sep 13 2008
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Those who know me well, will know how extreme it is for me to say the following:



I do not want to eat.



I know I should, as my migrane is from nothing more than not eating enough and not drinking enough water today.



Three glasses full of water, and a small amount of food and I'm worse. Truly I know better than this.



Now is not the time to say why me, it's the time to shovel the food in and tuck myself into bed because I fucked up.



Ownership. Damnit I did this to myself. Can I die now? Or at least cut off my head?? Meh. Hopefully roomie's friend gets here ASAP so I can log off an pass out.



Yuck.


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I know better.

01:11 Sep 13 2008
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Meh.



Perhaps I should follow my own advise.



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*le tear*

21:49 Sep 10 2008
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I just ate them all...



=/


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21:45 Sep 10 2008
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Wow, I love these sunflower seeds.... I can't stop eating them...


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Care Package

21:44 Sep 10 2008
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My undies came! Woooo :P



Sorry had to share, since I over shared last time. But my Mom also sent me a Kansas City t-shirt that I will actually wear, and chocolate covered sunflower seeds. Yummmm...



All I really have to say is ♥ Mom



:D


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03:10 Sep 09 2008
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I should have made it a double.


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Rusty Nails

02:59 Sep 09 2008
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I want to take a bath in them. Seriously drown it all away... ahhh perfect night cap, to put me out so I'm up and ready to run at 4:45am.



O.o


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It's that time again

02:15 Sep 08 2008
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I noticed this morning that my usual dread of the horrid "B-day" has not made me my typical Aug/Sept emo.



This is an extremely good thing, as when I hit that phase I just want to kick my own ass, and yell "GROW UP".



O.o



Wait, I thought that was the problem. For the first time, I know I'm doing what I love, loving what I do and frankly even the crud I have to deal with is a major learning experience.



This past week my friend Michelle and I had a misunderstanding. At first I was afraid it was going to ruin our friendship as I was approved for a space in Dorchester that she had been looking into for months, and just came up as available.



When I told her I had inquired/applied for it, not knowing or remembering her own look into the space, I was doing it because we have not connected in several months- and I did not want her to think I was doing anything underhanded. I even mentioned all the BS (run around- apprently that space has "no one responsible for it") they gave me. We both laughed about it, until she left- and the call came. They granted my office-mate and I the space. So naturally I called Michelle back to let her know.



It was not until the next day that she responded about her disappointment. At first I took the email as directed at me, so I responded that I did not want real estate to get in the way of our friendship as it is far too important. She thankfully called me and told me it was not that, but another person I work with. This person Michelle had talked to asking several questions about the space, as the space they are in is rented by the same group, so Michelle was trying to get information. Instead of telling my friend to contact me about what pertained to me, they made it seem like they did not know.



Ah, life in a small town where you can't get away from your neighbors when crap flies.



Michelle and I talked it out, I'm glad she had time to chat as I've both missed her this summer, and frankly it would have really upset me to not have settled that matter quickly.



The point of all of this is, things are moving slowly and certainly into a direction I never imagined when I first came here. Now that I'm offically a immigrant I'm viewing things just a wee bit different.



So I'm setting two goals that are important for me, with breaking more of my fears. Both of these are NOT for placing, but for knowing- "I did that." My time line is 3 years from now- by my 40th birthday.



1. I want to run a marathon, just to say that I have.

2. I want to compete in an IronMan event, again- just for the knowing that I have.



Part of it, is I'm sick of feeling broken, and the other is the hope that maybe, just maybe I will be able to return to the water after that. I don't know if I ever can in a healthy way, but there is a point where the oars break the surface -



And I fly.



I want my wings on water back.


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All about my undies

23:38 Sep 01 2008
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21 that's how many I threw out today.



And here I thought buying 9 was excessive. Good thing Mom bought me 6 more! Whew, who knew how many pairs of panties I had?! Not my "fancy ones" those I have far less of, but the cotton work out, day-to-day ones that I seem to go through 2-3 pairs a day.



Think about it, you don't want to wear sweaty panties all day do you? Ewwww



And yes, I just went there... wooo random day where I didn't do what I planned on.


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Almost over

20:03 Sep 01 2008
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In 1995 I was reluctantly *because I didn't want to* moved into my grandfather's house. I had just finished university, and my grandfather was dying. He was such a pivotal part of my life, really he was the only father I knew, so I was not going to leave knowing that I may never see him again.



When I was moved in, every and when I say every I mean EVERY room was piled 7' high with boxes. There were only paths from one room to another. No it is not an exaggeration, imagine the worst and then add more- you might have a clue as to what I was put in.



My first night I had to remove boxes off of my grandfather's bed because half of his bed was covered in boxes. Actually a year later I lost Spazz in the mess. I had to call a friend to come over and help me find her as she got trapped in the junk, and all I could hear were her cries.



I spent the next 11 years fighting with my mother, tying to ease the blow of the loss of someone dear, while throwing out many of the memories that if she had her way would remain as a museum to my grandparents.



What I accomplished was cleaning out all but one room and the garage. That equals 9 separate rooms all 10x10 filled to the brim down to just those two. I did several dump runs that were 700+ lbs. I replaced the fridge, the washer and dryer, put a new fence in, replaced some of the light fixtures, new kitchen floor, and new tile completely done in the bathroom and painted.



It doesn't seem like much, until you think about the fact that I was completely alone in my cleaning and purging. Occasionally friends would come help, but the majority of the time I was working in theatre, coaching rowing and working full time- trying to desperately find a way to keep the respect of my elders while allowing me to live.



Now my brother is there finishing what I failed to do. Only he has his soon to be wife there helping. Her father came and fixed the roof, and they have been moving my belongings into a safe room so that I don't have to worry until I can go get them.



I can't express how big of a weight this is off of me. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and I will not be alone the rest of this way. Yes they will be doing the most of the work, but I will be there as much as I can to help.



While I don't expect them to understand why I was unable to finish, that it will be done is such a huge relief. Not only that, it fulfils my brother's dream of living in Grandpa's house. That alone makes me emotionally happy, and nostalgic. I am so excited for him being able to offer his bride not only a house, but a home that is warm beautiful and with some TLC, sound.


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19:06 Sep 01 2008
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Cripes I'm being lazy today as well (yesterday I did laundry and watched movies, today promises to be the same).



Well who would have guessed? Oh well, I have training plans to do and laundry to finish... so far so good, still holding on to those prayers.



Perhaps I'll get some work done, then again- maybe I won't :P


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On a lighter note

16:03 Sep 01 2008
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Gobble gobble gobble!!!!



You know your mission, your public craves the turkey!



>:)


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Still holding my breath

15:15 Sep 01 2008
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I've been watching CNN, and while the news is better than hoped with Gustav going down to a cat 2 hurricane, it is hitting the one area that may not be as well prepared. It is hard not knowing what will happen, as it is the hours after the storm that will determine the destruction that happens.



Prayers are the primary thoughts I am having right now.



While watching the live video, I'm looking into Acupuncturists Without Boarders. Should it be needed, I will go for however long my coaching responsibilities will allow. I had wanted to go after 911, when many of my teachers went to ground zero to give treatments through the schools in NYC; but I was still a student. After Katrina one of my mentors went to NOLA with this new organization. I wanted to go, but could not afford the plane ticket. The hard part is the organization has difficulty even getting boxes of needles donated ($20.00 box). Then I donated every needle I had. I highly suggest that if you have the means, look into this organization which supplies free treatment for first response and victims of the disasters.



This time I will use my credit card if I have to, and credit with my needle supplier. As many people have said after the gathering, New Orleans took a part of me when I went. Some have struggled with the emotions of the city, while others have just accepted it. I knew in being there I would return.



I just hoped it would not be for something like this.


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